That was not a new thing for me to do- I actually read during that time almost every time I'm in Church. I've been slowly but surely (re)reading through the book "Beautiful Girlhood" revised by Karen Andreola (buy it here).
Today I started the second to last chapter, "A few faults discovered", and on pages 199-200 I found the following convicting bit that I would like to share with you.
(Please keep in mind that this also applies to women, boys, and men.)
Such a girl needs to learn to look well to the good that is about her. Where love is real beauty can be found. There is nothing more beautiful than a happy satisfied heart. If your love for pretty things so fills your heart that you cannot see the good that loving hands and hearts would bring to you, then you need to give serious attention to that which is obstructing your vision.
There is a spirit of discontent that makes the girl restless and uneasy. Now, I would not have you fully satisfied with things just as they are, so that you do not strive to improve; but that dissatisfaction that keeps a girl fretting about her fate spoils her happiness now and unfits her to appreciate what may be in her future."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I never really thought that I had this problem...I do like pretty things and nice clothes (doesn't everyone?), but I will confess that the things that really bother me are the things I'll probably never have- like a bright, cute Scandinavian house...or a house from the '20's-50's. Or even pretty kitchen/household stuff.
This all comes down to discontentment and covetousness.
"Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour's."
Please forgive me for not being content with the many wonderful things that you have given to me- that my life holds. Please forgive me for not trusting you to always care for me- I know that your word says "...I have not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread."
And "Are not five sparrows sold for two farthings, and not one of them is forgotten before God? But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows."
Thank you Lord, for your loving care and grace, and for showing me the error of my ways.
For your will I pray, in Jesus' name, Amen.
(Psalm 37:25b & Luke 12:6-7)