I opened my heart and life to you four times over the past two months. I did it because I felt that I had to, had to share...I think that God was leading me to. I was not looking for pity or accolades or lectures. (At the very least NOT from perfect strangers. People who don't know or like me at all.)
I have to admit that I was surprised/found it funny/shocked/hurt to find a thread on a dumb forum had been created just to discuss/make fun of my life, blog, family, etc....I know that these kinds of forums are often created and commented on by sad and hurting people.
~I did receive some sweet/nicer comments...a few people I actually thought that we could maybe like each other if we met in real life.
~I always wished that I had a slightly larger blog audience, now I have it: I have had a huge boost in numbers of folks visiting my blog (over 500!).
I pray that someone is blessed by my posts. I pray that God will soften hearts, and that people will realize that each one of us is unique and has a different life story.
That said, I'd like to address a few of the things people seem to be "worried" about:
~Yes, I depend on my Mom, and she depends on me. I depend on my Dad too, for that matter. We ALL depend on someone- sibling, partner, boss, roommate, friend, co-worker, etc.
~I'm not opposed to dating, in that if I knew I liked and trusted a guy enough, I'd go out with him.
~I DO have guy friends. I like guy friends. I had brothers, male cousins, and in my Sunday school, I was the only girl (nice), for 4(?)years! It's just that I have to know someone a while before I feel comfortable enough to consider them friends, let alone family. (My highest praise of you would be for you to land a honoree relative title.)
~I don't have the happy knack of making any kind of friends- I find it very hard to find subjects of common interest, and the right questions to draw people out.
~Am I a perfect "Stay at Home Daughter"? No, not me...just ask around.
~I don't "dwell on marriage"- If the recent number of posts suggest that, not true- I've just been writing as I feel led, hoping to be honest and maybe encourage some other life traveler.
~In my circle the number of "singles over 30" is less than a handful.
~I believe in the sovereignty of God- His plans for my life and ordering the universe.
Proverbs 21:31 "The horse is prepared for the day of battle, but the victory belongs to the LORD." Man proposes, but God disposes. I do what I can with the life God has given me, and results are up to God.
~Sure Jane Austin wrote fiction, but there are no book/movie/play characters who don't have some truth- every character is based in some way on one or more person in real life. Why else do movies tend to have disclaimers?
~We don't have strange political views. And we are not neo-cons.
~I/my family are NOT Fundamentalists. We aren't average Evangelicals. (Reformed people & Presbyterians are not your average cup of tea.)
~We do not consider ourselves "amateur" soap makers. Mom and I started making soap in 1997, and have been selling our soap since the early 2000's. And Colloidal Silver is silver in water. It is not damaged by heat. Our soap is labeled properly- we believe that all products should have all ingredients listed. How else can one make an informed decision to buy them or not?